Welcome.

I used to define myself from my journey of my past. But recently, this past year of 2023, life has taught me that I’m able to define myself anyway that I truly desire. So where to begin, where to start? There will be moments where I share my past. It’s quite dark and tragic, yet beautiful at the same time. I have come to a space and place where it exits, but it’s mostly dormant in its cage. It lives and breathes, but I don’t poke it or evoke it.

2024. New Girl

So who is Ashlee? As of 2024 Ashlee is evolving rapidly. She’s creating, learning, and trying new things. Last year I broke free from people pleasing and was left to find exactly what I want and what makes me happy. I had to learn a new way of life and most importantly a new way to think. Wanting new things and having them are two totally different things. You can want anything, but there’s shift and movement that comes along when you want to see it come into fruition into your life. These new things that I want with my life require me to become a different person to have them. It requires a lot more self-confidence and a different set of beliefs that I must learn.

Lemme get a drizzle of Self-Love, please

There’s a lot of excitement in the air, but a lot of work to be done in terms of “self.” The level of self-discipline needed often keeps me on a loop of 3 steps:

1. Being alone to quiet my thoughts to find the right space and place of what exactly I want

2. Walking and roaming the streets to find the right words and thoughts that align with exactly what I want, messing up, and trying again to perfect my thoughts to my desires

3. Seeing my desires come into fruition, sharing them with you and the world and then starting back up again and finding something new what I desire

This year I’m desiring new experiences of work, travel, creativity (collaborating) and improving my relationships especially with my family. January isn’t even over yet, and I’ve seen so much of it already start. It’s beautiful and now I’m learning about keeping up my motivation.

Growth

I’m learning that I’m actually really impatient. hahah I want things NOW. It’s giving Ariana Grande: “ I see it, I like it, I want it, I got it.” But NOW. Life isn’t like that. So I’m learning to stay at the place where what I am wanting is mine, but enjoying the process to getting there.

I’m also really leaning into gratitude. It’s been a life changer for me. It’s so nice to sit down and just be okay and in awe of where yu are right there. Nothing needed, but just an awareness of what is. It helps me with my impatient anxiety.

No, thank you

Which also brings me here to say thank you to you all who are here reading this today. I love writing and it’s always been therapeutic for me. Sometimes it feels I have an internal duty to show up for others, which I’m incredibly grateful for btw, but it’s always been a question of how? Now I close my eyes, trust my gut and just put it out there. I know the right people will stumble across this and my words will either make you smile, give you inspiration or even just let you know that you’re not alone.

So thank you for being here. Thanks for being apart of my tribe and giving me a safe space to be me and allowing me to share myself with you!

Welcome to the new world of Ashlee. I’m so glad you’re here.

xx
-A